the elegant curl of fingers
the pulse along the thumb
the pulpy fibers under-hand
the veritas to come
the graphite-shaded digits
the creamy, untouched page
the smell of coffee left to cold
the keening of the age
the trembling hand and pencil
the rhythm of the clock
the writing callus pressed to wood
the wait, the tick, the tock
the stillness of the vehicle
in silent, solemn prayer
the slight, self-depricating laugh
the something in the air
the weighty silence settling in
the teasing phrase is found
the blinding sight of something right
that muffles all around
the itching corners of the mouth
the slight and subtle grin
the first stroke o
She has always claimed
to approach life
with caution.
Missing that near save
because she would have had
to dive,
Spending her weekends
on the extra credit
because it can't hurt,
Turning down dates
that she knows won't grow into
anything more,
It's all a part of
the plan.
You'll see.
Each one of us is chasing stars,
Reaching through the great unknown,
Always hoping that, when grown,
These sparkling treasures will be ours.
So we leap into freezing air,
Praying we won't fall back down,
For Earth, even in fine spring gown
Somehow, for us, does not compare.
But fall we do, and oh, how long
Is our disgraceful, sharp descent!
On this, stars' twinkling laughter's spent,
For we, they know, have got it wrong.
Our greedy grasp shows no respect;
Our purpose, friends, is to REFLECT.
Child of metal, Child of sky
Made to falter, made to fly
Crude with color mixed and set
Made to seek for glory high
Child of metal, Child of sky
Born to laugh and born to cry
Struggling always, winning less
Born to sing and born to sigh
Child of metal, Child of sky
Born to live and born to die
Struggling always, ending thus
Sinking slowly into dusk.
...Sunken, sure, but not to stay
The Child returns the narrow way
Made to falter and to fly
Child of metal, Child of sky
I haven't words to mourn this dying world,
this world with one foot into the Abyss;
This world of hollow people, trying hard
to stuff themselves with feeling, rush, and fear,
in hopes that they will, somehow, find for cheap
the depth of life that costs so much that's dear;
This world where words are words and nothing more,
not dreams, not truths, not frames for great ideals;
This world where blenders of "diversity"
churn mixed-up cups of product all the same
throughout, without a thought for what they'd gain
if each was kept and cherished separately;
No, I've no words to mourn this dying world;
the words were dead already, first
Nobody broke me, I came this way:
Drifting in darkness, swallowed by gray.
The dog-eared corners, the cracked-flat spine
Have always been, always will be, mine.
My soul waits in terror, white-knuckled and still,
For the next great disaster (for come, horror will),
Watching the sky for the next storm-gray cloud,
No matter that sun seems to reign all around.
When the other shoe drops I'll be battered once more,
Naked and bruised, lying prone on the floor.
Why bother hoping, and why make a stay,
When the next gust of wind will just blow me away?
And the terrible wind only comes from my mind,
From the shadowy spot I hope no one will
Out of the Rain - Teaser by SwallowingInk, literature
Literature
Out of the Rain - Teaser
My life wasn't supposed to turn out like this.
I was supposed to go to college and study English, and become a famous novelist, or a rich editor for a company in New York, or something. Never in my wildest, most morbid imaginings, or in my best-developed stories, did anything like the shit that is now my life happen to me. Of course, they say the truth is stranger than fiction. I guess they're right, whoever they are.
...At first I didn't notice him because I was accustomed to looking like I was minding my own business to avoid attention, but the longer I sat there against the wall, the more I was sure someone was watching me.
And not just
Salt must be what makes the world go 'round
Notable in any place it's found
Leaving liquid trails along the cheeks
Running miles and miles, for weeks and weeks
Glistening in patches on the skin
Sharpest tang that, yet, we must take in
Spilling out in joy, in grief, in dread
Only fully stopped when we are dead
Sunk in salt and water do we drown
Yes, salt must be what makes the world go round.
the elegant curl of fingers
the pulse along the thumb
the pulpy fibers under-hand
the veritas to come
the graphite-shaded digits
the creamy, untouched page
the smell of coffee left to cold
the keening of the age
the trembling hand and pencil
the rhythm of the clock
the writing callus pressed to wood
the wait, the tick, the tock
the stillness of the vehicle
in silent, solemn prayer
the slight, self-depricating laugh
the something in the air
the weighty silence settling in
the teasing phrase is found
the blinding sight of something right
that muffles all around
the itching corners of the mouth
the slight and subtle grin
the first stroke o
She has always claimed
to approach life
with caution.
Missing that near save
because she would have had
to dive,
Spending her weekends
on the extra credit
because it can't hurt,
Turning down dates
that she knows won't grow into
anything more,
It's all a part of
the plan.
You'll see.
Each one of us is chasing stars,
Reaching through the great unknown,
Always hoping that, when grown,
These sparkling treasures will be ours.
So we leap into freezing air,
Praying we won't fall back down,
For Earth, even in fine spring gown
Somehow, for us, does not compare.
But fall we do, and oh, how long
Is our disgraceful, sharp descent!
On this, stars' twinkling laughter's spent,
For we, they know, have got it wrong.
Our greedy grasp shows no respect;
Our purpose, friends, is to REFLECT.
Child of metal, Child of sky
Made to falter, made to fly
Crude with color mixed and set
Made to seek for glory high
Child of metal, Child of sky
Born to laugh and born to cry
Struggling always, winning less
Born to sing and born to sigh
Child of metal, Child of sky
Born to live and born to die
Struggling always, ending thus
Sinking slowly into dusk.
...Sunken, sure, but not to stay
The Child returns the narrow way
Made to falter and to fly
Child of metal, Child of sky
I haven't words to mourn this dying world,
this world with one foot into the Abyss;
This world of hollow people, trying hard
to stuff themselves with feeling, rush, and fear,
in hopes that they will, somehow, find for cheap
the depth of life that costs so much that's dear;
This world where words are words and nothing more,
not dreams, not truths, not frames for great ideals;
This world where blenders of "diversity"
churn mixed-up cups of product all the same
throughout, without a thought for what they'd gain
if each was kept and cherished separately;
No, I've no words to mourn this dying world;
the words were dead already, first
Nobody broke me, I came this way:
Drifting in darkness, swallowed by gray.
The dog-eared corners, the cracked-flat spine
Have always been, always will be, mine.
My soul waits in terror, white-knuckled and still,
For the next great disaster (for come, horror will),
Watching the sky for the next storm-gray cloud,
No matter that sun seems to reign all around.
When the other shoe drops I'll be battered once more,
Naked and bruised, lying prone on the floor.
Why bother hoping, and why make a stay,
When the next gust of wind will just blow me away?
And the terrible wind only comes from my mind,
From the shadowy spot I hope no one will
Out of the Rain - Teaser by SwallowingInk, literature
Literature
Out of the Rain - Teaser
My life wasn't supposed to turn out like this.
I was supposed to go to college and study English, and become a famous novelist, or a rich editor for a company in New York, or something. Never in my wildest, most morbid imaginings, or in my best-developed stories, did anything like the shit that is now my life happen to me. Of course, they say the truth is stranger than fiction. I guess they're right, whoever they are.
...At first I didn't notice him because I was accustomed to looking like I was minding my own business to avoid attention, but the longer I sat there against the wall, the more I was sure someone was watching me.
And not just
Salt must be what makes the world go 'round
Notable in any place it's found
Leaving liquid trails along the cheeks
Running miles and miles, for weeks and weeks
Glistening in patches on the skin
Sharpest tang that, yet, we must take in
Spilling out in joy, in grief, in dread
Only fully stopped when we are dead
Sunk in salt and water do we drown
Yes, salt must be what makes the world go round.
Tomorrow I'm leaving my house and not coming back for a while. After a stop somewhere else, I'll be going back to school.
I was never one of those kids who had a problem with "back-to-school" day. Hell, most of the time it was exciting, so exciting that the prospect kept me up until at least the wee hours of the morning, if I slept at all the night before. Sometimes this was due to anxiety as well, but most of the time it was almost pure excitement.
My being awake at 2 a.m. EST is not a result of excitement. Not this time.
Actually, if I want to blame something this time, I should really blame my ridiculous need to stay up reading until al